Sixty -Three

 That's how old I am today!

I can't decide if that's old or not!

When I was in elementary school, we were asked to imagine what the year 2000 would be like. This was around 1972, when there seemed to be endless possibilities for the year 2000, including flying cars, robots cleaning houses, and computers that responded to voice commands, much like those in Star Trek.  I couldn't write anything for ages because I figured out Winventions!

Now 38 seems too young! Just the beginning of life!

When I hear of people passing away in their 60s, 70s, or even 80s, I think it's too young.

When did this mind shift happen?  I used to think that living until your 70s was good, a life well spent, but now I think it's too young to die.

Maybe it's not to do with the number, but what you are doing every day. 

Am I living my best life, squeezing in as many conversations with those that are important to me, having little adventures every day, growing and discovering new things about myself, my life, this incredible planet that we live on? Or am I mindlessly binge-watching TV, ignoring my loved ones, and focusing on the things that aren't working instead of living in gratitude for the things that I have?

I feel that I'm not living my life with purpose; I am wasting too much time watching TV or messing around on social media instead of focusing on what I should be doing!

As I said yesterday, today is the start of another year for me. I don't want to be in the same situation this time next year. I want to be healthier, I want my business to grow, and I want to start a new business. I want to see my kids' lives getting better. 

So I start now. I start by doing some exercise before I go to bed tonight. I start by reading a page in easy Japanese. I'll make a plan for tomorrow and follow through with what needs to be done. 

I was looking through some photos to add to this post. I always feel my life was so hard, and in many ways it has been. But looking at these old photos, I've come to realize that it wasn't all bad. I was loved, first by my parents and siblings, later by my husband, and now by my kids!

I was, maybe, in my late 20s here.

With Mom, Mikey, and Alan.

First time in Japan.

In my 40s with the kids in the UK.

I always feel that I'm not photogenic. This is from last year with Hannah.

Not too bad!

So here's hoping this next year will see a lot of improvements!!!