Exhausted

 I know my health isn't great, but the past few weeks I've been a lot more tired than usual.

Just one day out has left me feeling extremely low for the whole week. I know the added stress of Dad being in the hospital hasn't helped, but surely I shouldn't be this bad!

I've been trying to figure out what is wrong, but I have no idea. I'm trying to lose weight again, so I try not to have carbs in the morning and evening, for those meals I focus on low fat protien and vegetables. I'm craving sweets like crazy, but there's nowhere I can walk to buy anything. The only time we have any snacks in the house is when Hannah visits. If I want something sweet, I have to make something! This week I made a Victoria Sponge, but I only had one very small slice!

Victoria Sponge

I'm still trying to exercise, this week the weather has been nice, so I've been walking around the garden, doing a few things out there, but not as much as I should do!

I'm on meds for high blood pressure, but my readings are low, maybe too low. This morning was 102/70. Maybe I need to change my blood pressure meds. 

Maybe this feeling of exhaustion is more mental and has to do with all the stress I feel. I try to write down things at night before I go to bed, making lists, writing my journal, anything to get the thoughts out of my head. Some nights it works and I can fall asleep alright, but I still don't sleep all night. Some nights, I toss and turn thinking about things. Most nights, I sleep about 3 hours, then wake up and have a hard time falling back to sleep. Sunday night/Monday morning was awful! I fell asleep about midnight, woke up at 1 am, then didn't sleep until 4:30 am. My alarm went off at 5am! About one and a half hours of sleep! Thankfully, most nights aren't that bad.

One thing I need to get out of the habit of doing is reading on my Kindle late at night. I think the blue screen doesn't help. Maybe I should switch my late-night reading to real books; I still have plenty, keep my Kindle for earlier in the day! Also, I should turn the TV off earlier.

I'll try that for the rest of this month and see if it helps. I need to build better sleep habits, stop dozing in the day, stay up when I get up would help as well. I hope that as the weather gets a bit warmer, it will be easier to stay awake after 5am! Try to keep active during the day so I can sleep at night! 

I have an appointment on March 3rd to see my doctor about my diabetes and high blood pressure, maybe ask to change my meds. There's so much I want to do, but I never have enough energy. Is this part of ageing or just me being tired?