Check Up

 Yesterday was my 3-month check-up for diabetes and high blood pressure.

I will admit that the past few months, I haven't been really mindful of my eating. I know that over the Christmas and New Year's there are so many lovely foods that I only buy or make at that time of year, so I gave myself permission to eat. I thought that I would get that out of my system and that by the middle of January, I would go back to eating less carbs and sugars, but that hasn't really happened. I have good days, sometimes two or three days running that I am eating better and doing more exercise, then I'll have a few bad days where I eat the wrong foods. I don't overeat. I get full quickly; once I feel full, I stop eating, which is a new thing for me. I used to be able to eat even when I felt full; now, however, that makes me feel sick, which is a good thing! I also eat very slowly; it can take over 20 minutes to eat a meal, which is also a good thing, except I'm left alone at the table with only the cats to keep me company.

I was very worried about this check-up. My weight hasn't really changed; it's gone up and down the same half a kilo for the past couple of months, which is amazing considering the amount of junk I've eaten! I thought my A1C would be higher, but it was the same as the last test: 5.7! Also, my blood pressure has gone down; at the doctors it was 102/60. I asked to change the blood pressure meds as part of my gums have become swollen, I don't know if it's a side effect of the one medicine I was taking or if something else is going on! The doctor prescribed a different medicine but told me to come in if my blood pressure goes up or if I have other problems with it. Looks like I'll have to go to the dentist to find out what's happening with my gums! 

I have a new goal: to get under 90kgs by July. Why July? The musical Sunset Boulevard will be playing in Tokyo from July 10th to August 1st. Hannah and I are planning (hoping) to see it. I'm going to start training for walking in the heat. Most summers, I don't do anything or go anywhere because of the heat and humidity. When the extreme heat was just three months of the year, that was alright, now though, most years it's about half the year. I don't want to be stuck in one room for half a year, so I think I need to start preparing for the heat and humidity now, build up my stamina, and find products that will help with the heat, especially with sweating!

This evening I'm going to sit with a notebook and a calendar and make some goals.

Also, I got a new rice cooker. David bought it for me. I think he was fed up with burnt rice. It wasn't expensive, 4,000 yen, about £20. It's so nice to just put the rice in and push a switch. No more watching the pan to make sure it doesn't boil over or burn the rice! 

My new rice cooker

It's very small but does up to 4 cups of rice. It also has a basket to steam foods in, I'll have to try that out sometime.
 

Just Thinking

 Yesterday, when I changed over the chest of drawers, I threw out a few things. Not a lot, about one trash bag full, clothes that were falling to pieces, some that no longer fit, just trash really. But it wasn't easy! For example, I threw out a sweater that I bought about 15 years ago. I've only worn it a couple of times because it's not my style, wide neck, off-the-shoulder type. I got it from a recycle store, so not expensive, no real sentimental feelings toward it either, but I just haven't been able to throw it out!

Why? I can understand keeping things that have sentimental value. I have a couple of things that belonged to my Mom and Hisao, they comfort me and bring back memories. I also have a couple of baby clothes from each of my kids, again, comfort and memories. The same with photos and journals that I keep, I like looking back, remembering things, places I went, people I knew. Now that the kids are adults, I can tell them stories of their childhood. I feel that kind of family history is important!  

Why do I find it hard to throw out things that I don't need, aren't useful and are not even worth keeping? Is it the fear that I won't be able to buy things? Is it the fear of not having things? I know that when I do get the courage to purge myself of unnecessary stuff, I feel a lot better. I feel lighter, more at ease. Getting there, however, is hard. Hannah and David are good at helping me when I need to declutter.

Once I was sorting out the teaching materials I had. I had built up a library of books, CDs and prints. I like that I had a choice of textbooks so I could cater to the students' individual needs, but I always went back to using the same textbook.  I pulled books off the shelves, making two piles: keep or trash. The keep pile was getting very high! Hannah asked why I was keeping certain books, I told her that the grammar points were good or the dialogues were useful. She pointed out that the information was out of date. In one book, it had the question "Who is she/he?" with photos of Princess Diana and Michael Jackson; most kids wouldn't know who they are. Another book had a picture of cassette tapes, asking how many? Again, kids wouldn't know what cassette tapes are. With Hannah's help, I managed to throw out a load of books, making the room look a lot better.

The same with David. Before we moved here, we cleaned out the storage place. I had kept everything that I wasn't using, about 34 years of stuff, from baby clothes to school textbooks and loads of broken gadgets. David would pick up something and ask why are you keeping this. So much trash. It broke my heart, but I realised that the only value was sentiment, not usefulness! I kept a few things, but most were thrown out.

I think I need to learn how to do this by myself. I don't like the feeling of being afraid of letting things go. With spring starting, it's a good chance to go through the things that I have and do another good purge of trash. This house is too small, half the size of the last house. I don't really have space just to keep things. 

I can do this! I'll just have to remind myself every day!

A photo of the mountains from the other morning. It's been raining all day today, which is good as the winter has been very dry and the reservoirs were getting low!

Misty mountains.

A New Chest Of Drawers

 Did I mention that the chest of drawers in my bedroom stopped opening? About a month ago, the bottom three drawers got stuck. David managed to get them out, but they wouldn't go back in. So two of the drawers have sat near the door to my room. The cats liked to get in the top one!

Sam is in my drawer.

Maybe I could have coped with the drawers that were left, but they were getting harder and harder to open. The other day, it took 20 minutes to open one drawer. 

My old chest of drawers.

I remembered that there are two nice sets of drawers in the storage room. I asked David to check them out, which he did. One was still good, the other one was not really useful, with very shallow drawers and smelled a bit musty. 

Today, David said that he and Mikey could bring the good set of drawers down. I'm glad I have these muscle men to help me out; there's no way I could have gotten the drawers down the very steep stairs in the storage place.

While I was making lunch, they got the drawers down and gave them a good cleaning. I thought that just changing clothes from one set of drawers to another would take a few minutes. I didn't anticipate David's help.

The top part of the old drawers I had some books, I always seem to have more books than anything else. I had put them up there to keep them away from the cats.  The new set of drawers doesn't have a cupboard space on top, so what to do with the books?

David opened the closet that I have and decided to reorganise it, to make space for my books. Great idea. The only problem was that the closet had become a dumping ground for clean laundry! Weeks of laundry that nobody had claimed was just shoved in there.

David pulled out a lot of the laundry, some of the boxes and files that were in there. Let's just say my room was a disaster!

Disaster!

Hannah called while we were doing this. I couldn't find my phone! I sent her these photos. She understood why I didn't answer!

Even though I hadn't planned to do this today, I'm glad we did. I managed to fill up a big bag of trash, things that I'm just hanging onto for the sake of hanging onto them. I found things that I thought were lost, some tops that should fit me now. Also, moving the old drawers revealed mould that had been growing behind them. David wiped the walls down with bleach. There is still a lot to do, but we made a good start!

My new drawers

The teddy bear is Hannah's. I don't know why it's in my room.

The baskets on the floor are clothes that belong to Christopher and Mikey; they'll have to put them away later, plus two baskets of stuff I'm throwing out!

I think today was a good start to March!

February

 I don't really like February. The weather is usually very cold, sometimes we even get snow. The excitement of the new year has worn off, and the energy of spring hasn't really started.

I spent most of February making plans. I really want to start an English school here. I tried to clean out the tatami room and tried to fix the fusuma doors. The vinyl flooring cover is too small so I'll have to try to wash the carpet; at least it's good exercise. Get the entrance, inside and outside cleaned again. I think it's time to start making lists for March!

I didn't really study Japanese during February; I will need to do that in March. I think I need to make a schedule and stick to it.

Also, my diet didn't really restart after stopping over the holidays! My weight hasn't gone up, but it hasn't gone down either. I guess staying the same is alright! No choice!

The highlight of the month was the trip to Fukuoka Art Museum. I really enjoyed that day out. Just getting out of the house and seeing somewhere different really helps. 

My plans for March are to get the room for teaching set up, sort out the teaching materials and put out leaflets. April starts the new school year, so it's a good chance to get students.

I'm going to start pilates, I want to do everyday but not very confident about Tuesday and Wednesday when I'm out most of the day. Go back to eating less carbs and hopefully drop some weight.

Clean the garden a bit more, maybe plant something, but haven't decided what as yet. 

At the end of March, I have a 3-day, 2-night trip with Hannah. We are going to Mojiko and Shimonoseki. Both places have a lot of historical sites to visit. 

Let's hope March will be a good month.

A few more photos from our trip to Fukuoka.

Some kind of event, but I don't know what, the music was good!

Near the museum, maybe a former prime minister.

The massive tori gate

NHK studios

Weather

 I'm amazed at how the weather affects me.

I don't know if it's because of my age or because of this house. When it's very hot or very cold, I have a hard time moving about this house because the only room I can keep cool or warm is my room!

This week, the weather has been strange. Sunday and Monday, it was like spring, warm, sunny weather. Monday, it got up to 22°C. Tuesday and Wednesday was back to winter weather, not getting over 10°C. Thursday saw rain starting, which has continued through today!

My mood and energy levels have followed the same pattern, Sunday and Monday, happy, cleaning, thinking about decluttering again, and moving furniture. Tuesday and Wednesday back to hibernation mode, a bit grumpy because I was cold and my big toe hurt! Yesterday was sheer determination to get the tatami room sorted to start teaching. Today, totally miserable with headaches and, of course, allergies have kicked in. 

When either Christopher or David don't have work, I try to get bigger jobs done around the house. They have more strength and energy than I do! That's one of the reasons I pushed to do the tatami room yesterday, because David didn't have work the night before. Tomorrow, Christopher doesn't have work, so I plan to do some outside work (if the rain stops) and tidy the storage room.

 I have to push next month to really get the room ready to start teaching. It's about 80% done. I would love to get some nice bookshelves, but that might have to wait! David is planning to put out leaflets from next month. I hope by April we will have a few students here, we really need to make money to do this house, no more mopping in bed!

I have a plan. Can I stick to it?

I think the cats have a good life!

Lounge around all day, the only thing they have to do is look cute!

DIY....

 Isn't as easy as it looks!

The other week, we bought some paper to replace the covering on the fusuma doors. These are the doors to the room we will use for teaching, the doors that the cats have destroyed. 

Fusuma doors

These doors are really bad; they were already bad before the cats got to them, but now they're even worse.

I thought it would just be a case of taking off the ripped part and putting on the new paper, but of course, it wasn't that easy.  David took the one door down, got the new paper, and then realised that there were some tools we needed. 

We ran out to the store where we had bought the paper, Nafco. I love this store, so many wonderful products for the home and garden, but no money to buy everything I want.

We found the tools alright, and we bought a new light for the room as well.

The old light.

The new light

Makes a lot of difference in the room, a lot brighter!

We also got lucky with a floor covering that I've been looking for. At the moment, we have an old green carpet over the tatami mats. That carpet is about 60 years old and, like me, is showing its age. I've tried to clean it, but it just doesn't look good. While we were in the store, we found a sale for a vinyl floor mat that will be a lot easier to keep clean! Once we have it laid, I'll take some photos. I'm really happy about that, as I was stressing about the old carpet!

When we got back, we had another go at changing the fusuma paper. I say we, but David did most of the work, with some help from the cats!

Frodo is making sure David is doing it tight

The edge of the door has a frame. That frame has to come off to put the new paper on. The frame was held in place with these long, thin nails. It took ages to get the frame off.

 

David finally got the frame off, took over 30 minutes. Putting the new paper on wasn't easy either! We ended up with all wrinkles on it. David said it matched my face!

Wrinkly door.

The paper isn't that expensive, and now that David knows what to do, he can try again! Or we could hire someone who knows what they are doing!

I had a lovely surprise yesterday. I received a package from a friend, a really lovely book on pilates!

My new book

I never thought of doing pilates, but just looking through this book, I think there are some exercises I can start with, as I get better, I can try some of the more difficult ones.

I've known this lady for years; she was one of the first foreigners I met here. Every day, she sends videos about exercise or healthy living. I try some of the exercises, and the videos on healthy living give me a lot to think about!

I'm glad that we are making some progress on the one room. It gives me hope that we can make this house nice and more livable!

Exhausted

 I know my health isn't great, but the past few weeks I've been a lot more tired than usual.

Just one day out has left me feeling extremely low for the whole week. I know the added stress of Dad being in the hospital hasn't helped, but surely I shouldn't be this bad!

I've been trying to figure out what is wrong, but I have no idea. I'm trying to lose weight again, so I try not to have carbs in the morning and evening, for those meals I focus on low fat protien and vegetables. I'm craving sweets like crazy, but there's nowhere I can walk to buy anything. The only time we have any snacks in the house is when Hannah visits. If I want something sweet, I have to make something! This week I made a Victoria Sponge, but I only had one very small slice!

Victoria Sponge

I'm still trying to exercise, this week the weather has been nice, so I've been walking around the garden, doing a few things out there, but not as much as I should do!

I'm on meds for high blood pressure, but my readings are low, maybe too low. This morning was 102/70. Maybe I need to change my blood pressure meds. 

Maybe this feeling of exhaustion is more mental and has to do with all the stress I feel. I try to write down things at night before I go to bed, making lists, writing my journal, anything to get the thoughts out of my head. Some nights it works and I can fall asleep alright, but I still don't sleep all night. Some nights, I toss and turn thinking about things. Most nights, I sleep about 3 hours, then wake up and have a hard time falling back to sleep. Sunday night/Monday morning was awful! I fell asleep about midnight, woke up at 1 am, then didn't sleep until 4:30 am. My alarm went off at 5am! About one and a half hours of sleep! Thankfully, most nights aren't that bad.

One thing I need to get out of the habit of doing is reading on my Kindle late at night. I think the blue screen doesn't help. Maybe I should switch my late-night reading to real books; I still have plenty, keep my Kindle for earlier in the day! Also, I should turn the TV off earlier.

I'll try that for the rest of this month and see if it helps. I need to build better sleep habits, stop dozing in the day, stay up when I get up would help as well. I hope that as the weather gets a bit warmer, it will be easier to stay awake after 5am! Try to keep active during the day so I can sleep at night! 

I have an appointment on March 3rd to see my doctor about my diabetes and high blood pressure, maybe ask to change my meds. There's so much I want to do, but I never have enough energy. Is this part of ageing or just me being tired?