Breaking Habits

 I've written about this before, but I don't remember when!

I'm trying to change my life around, to do all the things that I have to do, chores, shopping, cooking, and teaching.  Then having time and energy to do things I want to do, read (I have over 6000 books on my Kindle, plus I have a lot saved on Everand). Do some baking, study Japanese and maybe try a new hobby!

But my bad time habits are stopping me from having the life I really want!

In my mind, I have this great schedule: get up between 6:30 and 7 am. Make breakfast, clean the kitchen, do laundry, and do any other chores that need doing. Go outside for a bit, pull weeds and try to tidy the garden. Come back in, spend time on my computer, then make lunch. Afternoons are for me to do what I want to do, then go to teach!

Reality, I'm awake at about 4am, I try to sleep again, but only doze! I get up at 5am, take my medicines, and have a small breakfast. I go back to bed until 10 or 11 am, get up to make lunch. I feel tired and very unfocused. After lunch, I read for a bit but then have another sleep until about 4pm. I get up, mess around on the computer, then have dinner, watch TV, and then sleep.  I try to turn off everything by 11pm, but it's hard. I'm usually asleep by midnight but wake up every hour or so. I don't sleep for more than 2 hours at a time. Waking up, I just toss and turn, worrying about not sleeping!!

On the days I have energy, I push myself to do things! This leads to extreme fatigue for about a week. I don't think it's normal to be that tired after a couple of days of work.

I have a doctor's appointment next week, I'll ask him about this constant fatigue and ongoing insomnia. I think part of it is depression, but I think there might be something physical going on. 

One good thing is that I'm trying to do some exercise again. Since last Monday, I've done chair exercises almost every day. Tuesday and Wednesday, I go with Mikey to the other city to teach, on those days, I try to walk around the gym, if it's free, for about 15 minutes. I try to get up to 3000 steps, some days okay, other times not that many!

I've also been a bit more careful with my eating. I try to be very mindful of what I've eaten and what the food will do to my body! As I mentioned, I've started to drink matcha, so far I've been enjoying it, and I hope to keep it up! Also, I've been making more salads and using a lot of vegetables; everyone needs more vegetables in their diet!

One thing that has cheered me up is the blueberry bushes!  Looks like we will have a lot of fruit this year!

Blueberries are just starting to grow!

I'm hoping to make jam this year!  I need to find a good, easy recipe!