No Christmas Spirit

I have always done Christmas.  Even though it isn't a holiday here, I always managed to do
the trees, decorate the rooms, get presents and food.  I would be happy and excited for
my kids, Christmas carols would be played and I would find nice movies to watch!
This year however I just don't feel like doing anything.
 I haven't put the tree up in the living room, no space without moving most of the
furniture, plus I think the cats would destroy it.  Only Hannah asked for presents. she
wants musical DVDs.  The boys aren't interested in getting anything.  Of course I got them
a little something.  I've bought some nice meat for Christmas Day but have no idea what
to do for Christmas Eve.  It all seems like a chore which is not how I want to feel!
I guess the kids have grown up, but I don't want to face that!
Anyway will try to pull myself out of my flunk and have a good time with the kids!
One thing that is making it hard this year is my MIL's situation.  She is still in
hospital, with no end in sight. The doctors still don't know what is wrong with her, she
has a build of fluid in the stomach, it got so bad that she couldn't eat for a few days.
She seemed a bit better the last time we went to visit but until they figure out what is wrong
they can't treat her.  One option is to transfer her to another hospital has stomach specialists.
It's a case of wait and see.  One big problem is the money this is taking, we can't get her
pension so I have to pay everything, which is stressing me out no end!